Another way in which I use the daily self-portraits therapeutially is to face my fears. Sometimes I confront irrational fears by purging them immediately once they become known to me. Other times I will challenge myself to draw while I'm experiencing the fear, in the moment, using the act of drawing as a new form of exposure therapy. Below are some of my different fears in no particular order.

 

 

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Fear of testicluar cancer. Drawn in the waiting room.

 

 

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Fear of an upcoming cystoscopy.

 

 

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Fear of birds. Drawn immediately after being attacked by a mocking bird.

 

 

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Fear of heights. Drawn on the edge of the roof of my 11 story apartment building.

 

 

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Fear of trains. Drawn while standing on the tracks and waiting for a train to come. It was moving so fast that I barely had time to erase myself.

 

 

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Fear of bears. Drawn while listening to them search for food in my immediate surroundings.

 

 

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Fear of rattlesnakes. Drawn as it was rattling and advancing towards me in the wild. 

 

 

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Fear of suicide by suffocation.

 

 

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Fear of beng hit by a car while riding my bke.

 

 

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Fear of death by massive head trauma.

 

 

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Fear of lung cancer.

 

 

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Fear of being in a plane crash. 

 

 

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Fear of having convulsions and seizures. I've only had a few in my life but they were extremely terrifying.

 

 

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Irrational fear of my organs falling out when I first begin to urinate.

 

 

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Fear of getting a tooth ache and not being able to afford going to the dentist.

 

 

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Fear of bed bugs.

 

 

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Fear of getting beheaded by ISIS.

 

 

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Fear of being in a bulding collapse.

 

 

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Fear of spontaneous voiding.

 

 

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Irrational fear of stabbing myself in the neck with a pair scissors.

 

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Analysis and interpretation of a recurring fearful phenomenon.